26 December 2024

December 23 in A.A. History

In 1901, Bernard B. Smith was born in the Bronx, New York, the third of four children of Isaac and Fannie Stuzen Smith, both Yiddish-speaking Russian immigrants. He would become a member of the Alcoholic Foundation Board in 1944, Chair of the Board of Trustees for the Alcoholic Foundation (later the General Service Board of Alcoholics Anonymous) from 1951–1956, and 1st Vice President of the General Service Board from 1956 until his death in late July 1970.

22 December 2024

December 22 in A.A. History

In 1959, Frank Shaw, 73, died. He had been an early supporter of Bill W.’s stock market theories, and married Elsie Valentine, Lois’ close childhood friend.

In 2015, The Saturday Evening Post republished “Alcoholics Anonymous: Freed Slaves of Drink, Now They Free Others,” written by Jack Alexander. It looked exactly like the original article, except that it noted that “Jack Alexander introduced Alcoholics Anonymous to a national stage when this article was published on March 1, 1941”, and that it included an Editor’s Note:

A.A. had its beginnings in 1935 when a doctor and a layman, both alcoholics, helped each other recover and then developed, with a third recovering alcoholic, the organization’s guiding principles. By 1941, the group had demonstrated greater success in helping alcoholics than any previous methods and had grown to about 2,000 members. But for most of North America, A.A. was still unknown. Following the March 1, 1941, publication of an article in The Saturday Evening Post describing A.A.’s extraordinary success, inquiries began to flood in, leaving the small staff of what was then a makeshift headquarters over­whelmed. Alcoholics Anonymous tripled in size in the next year and continued to grow exponentially. Today, 75 years later, A.A. claims 2 million members worldwide, 1.2 million of them in the U.S.…

 

December 21 in A.A. History

In 1981, United Press International, in an article titled “First year crucial for reformed alcoholics” by Charles S. Taylor, reported on a study of 439 alcoholics who were members of Alcoholics Anonymous and had been sober for at least one year. The study was conducted by Dr. Leclair Bissell, who headed the American Society on Alcoholism and worked with alcoholics at Edgehill Newport, a treatment center in Newport, Rhode Island. The article called it “the first long-term study of a large group of alcoholics” and reported that it “reached an encouraging conclusion—most chronic drinkers who can stay off booze for one year have a good chance at continued sobriety.” Dr. Bissell said that alcoholics who receive counseling for their problem and abstain for a year usually don't touch alcohol again for up to seven years. She also said that abstinence seems to help alcoholics stop smoking, reduce suicidal behavior, reduce encounters with the police and drastically reduce hospitalizations for any reason.
 
   Dr. Bissell strongly criticized psychologists who try to return recovered alcoholics to “social drinking,” saying, “I think they’re killing a lot of people by encouraging them to return to drinking.”

20 December 2024

December 20 in A.A. History

In 1849, Ella A. Brock, Bill W.’s maternal grandmother, was born to John and Nancy Bowen Brock, in East Dorset, Vermont. Ella and her husband, Gardner F. Griffith, would raise Bill from the age of about 10.

In 1945, Rowland Hazard III, 64, died of a coronary occlusion (heart blockage), while at work in his office at Bristol Manufacturing.
 
   Rowland had carried the spiritual message of the Oxford Group to Ebby T., who then carried it to Bill W.
    The fact that he was a top executive of a major corporation at the time of his death suggests that Rowland had stopped drinking again, despite several known relapses. Nonetheless, some historians question whether he died sober. He had stayed active in the Oxford Group and remained so after it changed its name to Moral Re-Armament (MRA) in 1938. Some early A.A. members said they knew Rowland from his occasional visits to the old 24th Street Clubhouse, which A.A. members had established during June 1940 in a former stable at 334½ West 24th Street in Manhattan. There is no evidence that Rowland ever joined A.A. or considered himself a member.

19 December 2024

December 19 in A.A. History

In 1922, Lt. Junius C. and Marjorie Dickerson were married in Pike County, Mississippi. He would become a founder of Alcoholics Anonymous in Jacksonville, Florida.

In 1939, Kaye M., a nonalcoholic, held the first A.A. meeting in Los Angeles, California, at her home on Benecia Street in Westwood.
    Kaye became involved with A.A. earlier in the year while trying to help her ex-husband, Ty, get sober. She visited Akron and New York City, attending meetings and talking with members, including Bill W. in New York. After divorcing Ty and returning to Los Angeles by freighter via the Panama Canal, she began spreading the word about A.A. to newspapers and public officials. She fell in with two other nonalcoholics who were trying to help parolees get and stay sober: Genevieve Dodge, a social worker, and Johnny Howe, a psychologist. They had persuaded the Superior Court to allow them to treat alcoholics at Los Angeles County General Hospital
[below, c. 1931] Kaye taught them A.A. from her experience and from the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous, which she had brought with her. Early successes included Barney H. (or B.) and Hal S.
    Then in December, Chuck and Lee T., members of New York City A.A., visited Los Angeles. Bill W. had given them Kaye's number and they looked her up. Kaye decided it was time to have an A.A. meeting in Los Angeles, which was held on this date. Besides Kaye, Johnny Howe and three other social workers, there were Chuck and Lee T., Barney and Ethel H., Hal S., Chauncey and Edna C., Joy S., Dwight S. and Walter K. Kaye telegraphed news of the meeting—“Los Angeles held its first meeting tonight. Fifteen present.”—to Bill W. in New York.

 

December 18 in A.A. History

In 1917, the U.S. Senate voted 47–8 in favor of a joint resolution to override President Wilson's veto of the Volstead Act; the House had passed the same resolution the day before. The Volstead Act, officially known as the National Prohibition Enforcement Act, would amend the Constitution to prohibit “the manufacture, sale, or transportation of intoxicating liquors within, the importation thereof into, or the exportation thereof from the United States and all territory subject to the jurisdiction thereof for beverage purposes.”* It then went to the 48 states for ratification. On 9 January 1919, Nebraska would become the 36th state to ratify it, and one year later, on 9 January 1920, it would become the 18th Amendment.
*
Note that it did not prohibit consumption, possession, or production for personal use.

In 1934, Bill W. was discharged from Charles B. Towns Hospital for the last time. The charge for his one-week stay was $125 [~$2,945 in 2024], paid in advance by his brother-in-law, Dr. Leonard V. Strong.

In 1952, ector C. wrote to the General Service Office (G.S.O.) in New York City from Buenos Aires, Argentina, asking for help. Hector had been in treatment for alcoholism there since September. His letter immediately sparked a lively and ongoing correspondence, primarily with staff member Ann M., whom Hector came to consider his sponsor. (At one point, Ann M.’s first letter was framed and displayed in Buenos Aires to commemorate the birth of A.A. in Argentina.)


December 17 in A.A. History

In 1895, Florence Rankin, author of “A Feminine Victory” in the 1st edition of Alcoholics Anonymous, was born.

 In 1937, Bill W. wrote to Rev. Willard “Dick” S. Richardson, who handled John D. Rockefeller’s Jr. private charities and was Rockefeller’s spiritual advisor and close friend:

The problem is how best to get our message to the great number… if they only knew. How… to preserve sound spiritual construction, simplicity and spontaneity, at the same time making our experience as widely and quickly available as possible, is the conundrum.

In 1949, The Herald Saturday Magazine (Melbourne, Victoria, Australia) published John Holden’s article, “Drunkards have found the sober road” [right]. It filled almost half of page 15, and included both a photograph of Lillian R., the Hollywood actress who, with her husband “Jack” McG., helped start Melbourne’s first permanent A.A. group on 13 October 1947. At the bottom of the article there was a cartoon from “‘The Grapevine’ journal of Alcoholics Anonymous.”

 

16 December 2024

December 16 in A.A. History

In 1934, [15th? 17th?] “Ebby” T. returned to Towns Hospital to see Bill W., who had had his “white light” spiritual experience two nights earlier. Ebby took Bill through some of what would eventually become Steps—the 3rd through the 8th—and gave Bill a copy of William James’ Varieties of Religious Experience.
    Bill later said that he read it “cover to cover,” admitting that it was very difficult reading, but that he understood the content. He would incorporate some of James' ideas into the A.A. program.

15 December 2024

December 15 in A.A. History

In 1945, Dr. James “Jim” S., founder of the Washington Colored Group of Alcoholics Anonymous in Washington, D.C., wrote to Bobbie B., National Secretary of the Alcoholic Foundation in New York City,

I wish to state at this time that several of the White group members have visited our group meetings and have taken an active part, many times addressing the group or acting as group leaders. We have found them very inspiring and enthusiastic.

In 1949, a member of Alcoholics Anonymous, presumably from the local Poughkeepsie Group founded in 1946, addressed members of the Duchess County Social Planning Council at a luncheon meeting. The following day’s article “Social Planners Discuss Alcoholism” in the Poughkeepsie Journal (p. 3) read in part:

    Alcoholism is both a physical and spiritual disease and should be treated as a disease…
    The organization of between 80,000 and 100,000 has no opinions and no programs, dealing only with the alcoholic who signifies the desire to stop being one. The individual with whom Alcoholics Anonymous works must be willing to admit that he is an alcoholic needing help.…
    The speaker spoke of two kinds of skeptics, those who cannot understand the spiritual side of the program because of their own materialistic attitudes, and those evangelical persons who believe faith alone can produce a cure.…
    The speaker does not consider an alcoholic ever cured, he is arrested. Judges, he continued, can be of great help in explaining Alcoholics Anonymous, as can policemen. The latter are impressed, he said, when habitual drunks abandon their former habits and voluntarily stay sober. There are five types of drinkers, he said, the occasional social drinker, the heavy social drinker, the habitual drinker, the compulsive drinker who drinks to deaden the pain, or because he wishes to forget, and the alcoholic.
    There is an open meeting of Alcoholics Anonymous at Christ Church every Friday night at 8:30 o’clock.

December 14 in A.A. History

In 1934, [perhaps the 13th] Ebby T. [right] visited Bill W. at the Charles B. Towns Hospital, where Bill had been admitted three days earlier. Ebby again explained the practices of the Oxford Group and may have tried to get Bill to surrender to the care of Jesus Christ.
    After Ebby left, Bill fell into a very deep, dark depression and finally cried out, “I’ll do anything! Anything at all! If there be a God, let him show himself!” He then experienced a blinding light and felt an ecstatic sense of freedom and peace. This was Bill’s spiritual experience (or “hot flash” or “white light” experience, as he later called it).
    When Bill later told Dr. William D. Silkworth, Towns’ medical director, about the event, the doctor replied, “Something has happened to you I don’t understand. But you had better hang on to it.”

13 December 2024

December 13 in A.A. History

In 1913, the president of the Kentucky Distiller’s and Distributing Co. in Kansas City, Missouri, W. Franklin, wrote a letter to the Keeley Institute in Dwight, Illinois, a commercial medical operation that offered alcoholics a treatment known as the Keeley Cure or the Gold Cure from 1879 to 1965. It read:

Gentlemen: Our customers are your prospective patients. We can put on your desk a mailing list of over 50,000 individual consumers of liquor. The list is the result of thousands of dollars [$1,000 in 1913 ~$32,000 in 2024] of advertising.
    Each individual on the list is a regular user of liquor.
    The list of names is new, live and active. We furnish this list in quantities at the prices listed below. Remittances to accompany each order.
40,000 to 50,000         $400 [~$12,700 in 2024]
20,000         $300 [~$9,540 in 2024]
10,000         $200 [~$7,050 in 2024]
    We will not furnish this list in lots of less than 10,000. Discontinuance of business January 1 is the occasion for selling our mailing list.

    The Anti-Saloon League responded by publishing the letter in its official journal, The American Issue, with commentary [right].

In 1937, Bill W. and nine other men—Dr. Silkworth of Towns Hospital; Dr. Leonard Strong, Bill’s brother-in-law; and seven other alcoholics—Dr. Bob S., Paul S., Hank P., Ned P., Bill R., Joe T., and Fitz M.—attended a 6 p.m. dinner given by John D. Rockefeller, Jr. in the executive dining room at 30 Rockefeller Plaza. Although Mr. Rockefeller did not attend, the Rev. Willard “Dick” Richardson did. He brought select Rockefeller associates: Albert Scott, A. LeRoy Chipman, and Frank Amos. After dinner they adjourned to the boardroom next to John D.’s office. Bill was told that he was sitting in the seat just vacated by Mr. Rockefeller himself. The dinner and meeting lasted five hours, until 11 p.m.
    On his way out, Amos caught up with Bill and asked him to take on an alcoholic known to both Amos and Richardson: Jack D. This must have felt like a test to Bill. Nevertheless, Bill agreed to "start work with him, providing [Jack D.] was willing.”

In 1939, [or Dec 20, possibly Nov 29] The Akron “alcoholic squad” withdrew from association with the Oxford Group. Meetings were moved from the home of T. Henry & Clarace Williams to the homes of Dr. Bob and other members. 

In 1941, the first A.A. meeting in Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania was held in Room 152 of the Henry Hotel. It had been arranged by two non-alcoholics, Tim O’Leary and attorney David Janavitz, both of whom had alcoholic employees. Attendees were Si H., Howell J., Jake H., Arch K. and Jim K. In early 1941, the group would move to the downtown YMCA on Wood St. They would soon have to vacate the “Y” as space was needed for servicemen preparing for war. The group would move half a dozen more times in its first few years.

In 1949, in a letter to Jack Alexander, Bill W. first wrote down a description of how he had written the Twelve Steps 11 years earlier. Almost two years earlier, he had described this verbally to Paul H., who almost immediately dictated his recollection.

12 December 2024

December 12 in A.A. History

In 1865, Ella A. Brock and Gardner F. Griffith were married in Dorset, Vermont, by Rev. W. W. Whitney. They would have three children: Clarence H. (’67), Emily E. (’70?), and Amelia B. (’76). Emily would give birth to Bill W.

In 1890, William “Bill” D. was born in Bardwell, Kentucky. He would sober up in June 1935 at Akron Ohio’s City Hospital with the help of Bill W., Dr. Bob S., and possibly Edgar R. His story, “Alcoholic Anonymous Number Three” appears in the 2nd, 3rd and 4th editions of the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous.

In 1937, Bill W. held a “set up meeting” the night before a group of alcoholics—chosen by Bill—were to attend a Monday dinner given by John D. Rockefeller, Jr.. The attendees were Lois W.*, Dr. Bob S., Paul S., Hank & Kathleen* P., Ned P., Bill R., Joe T., and Fitz M. There is no known record of what transpired.
* Nonalcoholic
Ned had recently joined the New York Group. Hank had given him a job at Honor Dealers, but he wouldn’t stay sober long, and would turn out to be a con man, relieving the Parkhursts of “a car, a new suit, and some of Hank’s papers” within a couple of months.
Joe had been associated with the New York Group since 1936, but had vacillated between drinking and sobriety; he was apparently deemed sober enough at this time to be invited to the dinner.

In 1940, an A.A. meeting was held in St. Louis, Missouri, the first in the city. After returning from his meeting with Bill W. at the 24th St. Clubhouse in New York City, Father Ed Dowling was contacted by F., who said his son-in-law had a drinking problem. Of course, it was F. himself who had the problem and needed help. With Father Ed’s help and encouragement, F. gathered four other prospective members and held the first A.A. meeting in St. Louis—and in the state of Missouri—at the Gibson Hotel, 5883 Enright Ave.

11 December 2024

December 11 in A.A. History

Towns Hospital

In 1934, it was a typical winter day in New York City: temperature around 20℉ [-6.7℃], windy and cloudy. After a disastrous day of drinking following an angry fight with his wife, Lois, and all-night subway rides begging for money to buy booze, Bill W. came home to 182 Clinton St., Brooklyn, in the morning. Lois was at work.
    When he saw the damage he had caused by throwing Lois’s sewing machine against the wall during the argument, he became deeply remorseful. Remembering Ebby T.’s success in the Oxford Group, he left a note for Lois explaining that he was on his way to Charles B. Towns Hospital [right] for another round of alcoholism treatment, his fourth. He had 6¢ in his pocket; the trip would cost a nickel. On his way to the subway entrance, he saw a grocery store where his credit was still good and bought four bottles of beer. He arrived at Towns Hospital with a beer in one hand and two philosophy books in the other. He announced to Dr. William Silkworth that he had found the answer. Those beers would be Bill’s last, as he was admitted for the last time to undergo the Towns-Lambert treatment.*
    For the rest of his life, Bill would give this date as that of his last drink.
* The treatment that Bill received on each of his four visits to Towns Hospital is, in brief:

  • Every hour, day and night, for two days, give a mixture of three herbal extracts: Belladonna (deadly nightshade, 7.4 ml), Hyoscyamus (prickly ash, a trace?) and Xanthoxylum (henbane, 3.7 ml).
  • Note that omitting any of these ingredients will interfere with the “cessation of desire” effect (i.e., stopping cravings).
  • The dosage depends on how the body reacts to the belladonna. If the face flushes, the throat dries up, and the pupils dilate, stop or reduce the dosage until these symptoms disappear.
  • BUT it must be continued until these signs appear or the cravings will not disappear completely.
  • Also, every twelve hours, give a strong laxative of C.C. (Compound Catharic) pills (80 gr. extracti colocynthidis compositi, 60 gr. hydrargyri chloridi mitis, 16 gr. cambogiae and 20 gr. resinae jalapae) and blue mass (typically 34% rose honey, 33% mercury, 25% althea (or hollyhock or marshmallow), 5% licorice and 3% glycerin).
  • Once lots of green stools appear, give castor oil to clean out the gut completely.

In 1937, Dr. Bob S. and Paul S. drove from Akron, Ohio to Brooklyn, arriving late in the day. They would be among the alcoholics attending a dinner given by associates of John D. Rockefeller, Jr. the following Monday, two days later.

In 1941, The Dallas Morning News reported that A.A. had formed a chapter in Dallas, Texas.

10 December 2024

December 10 in A.A. History

In 1934, having gone—drunk—with Ebby T. to Calvary Church Rescue Mission just three days earlier, and then spending two days at home detoxing, Bill W. came home roaring drunk. This provoked an argument with Lois, who angrily shouted, “You don’t even have the decency to die! You’re crazy! You’re! Crazy!” Bill then picked up her sewing machine and threw it against the wall, terrifying Lois. Bill left, and rode the subways all night, panhandling for money to buy booze. Lois was plagued for a long time with deep regret for her outburst.

In 1975, the first Birds of a Feather (BOAF) Nest (i.e., group) was formed in Seattle, Washington.

Birds of a Feather International is a worldwide network of meetings based on the program of Alcoholics Anonymous. It was established for pilots and cockpit crew members active or inactive in private, commercial or military aviation. BOAF provides AA meetings worldwide (including ZOOM [oops! not what you might think] meetings), a yearly convention, a newsletter and a website for pilots and cockpit crew members in recovery.

December 9 in A.A. History

In 1985, David “Dave” B., 76, died with 40 years of sobriety. In April 1944, he founded the Montreal Group, the first A.A. group in Quebec, and served as a Class B (alcoholic) Trustee from 1962–64. His story, “Gratitude In Action,” appeared in the 4th edition of the Big Book, Alcoholics Anonymous.
    In 1959, Quebec had formed its own literature committee—Les Editions Francaises A.A.—where Dave had played a major role in translating the Big Book and other A.A. materials into French, advising the General Service Office of the difficulties encountered. One result was a French version of the Big Book, le Gros Livre, Les Alcooliques anonymes, which became the basic text for all French-speaking groups around the world.

12 June 2024

Supporting A.A. in Ukraine


[Note that this post was written in March 2022, shortly after the full-scale invasion of the Ukraine by the Russian Federation.]

An A.A. friend sent me a very well-done flyer for an online A.A. meeting in Kyiv, Ukraine. It's shown to the left, but I've removed the Meeting ID and Passcode; I don't want to make it that  easy to attend. When I first saw it, I thought, "I only wish that we could do something similar for all the Russian alcoholics, who must also be terribly distressed at this time" (especially those in the Russian military).

This flyer was immediately followed by a less well-done message, shown below, purporting to be from "Ukrainian AA Service Center and the Ukrainian AA Service Board" to "the AA World Community." I was skeptical. This looked so much like a myth that I expected to find it debunked at Snopes ("the internet’s definitive fact-checking resource"). I did not. But I did find an article titled, "UKRAINE: New Crisis, Grimly Familiar Disinformation Trends", which said, in part, 

It is a grim measure of the frequency of crisis events in recent years, and the ubiquity of online disinformation, that when a major story breaks — a terrorist attack, a mass shooting, or an act of war — the writers and editors at Snopes can typically predict what comes next. Recycled videos and photographs, stripped from their proper context, and the same old tropes, all designed to inflame or confuse, or even amuse, the reader.

This is followed by a "grim overview of the familiar disinformation trends and recurring memes… in the opening days of Russia’s invasion of Ukraine."

But, as I said, I only later looked on Snopes. First I searched the Internet. To my surprise, I immediately got a hit that looked very promising. It was on the aa.lviv.ua website and looked like this:


Since I don't know what I presumed was Ukrainian, and not having much patience, I immediately had the page automatically translated into English. It is indeed Ukrainian, and here's the English translation I got:

It was only later that I noticed that an English translation of the message follows the Ukrainian on the original, one click further down. I felt stupid and impatient for not looking.

Ultimately, I decided I'd check into the Kyiv online meeting and see if there was some way I could be helpful. I tried to log in a few minutes before it was to start. Due to the meeting having reached capacity, it was impossible to get in. It then occurred to me, If I'm having this much trouble getting in, there are probably Ukrainians who are also unable to get in. It horrified me to think that I could have had a part in disrupting their meeting. If, by some miracle, I had been able to get in, I sure hope I would have realized that the meeting was at capacity and left. But even if I had, my spot would have been filled by a non-Ukrainian.

I tried joining after the meeting was over. It was bedlam. It appeared that most people were unmuted and there were multiple conversations going on at the same time. I saw one man, who appeared to be that single Ukrainian member. He appeared to be quite stressed out. I also saw some A.A.friends of mine, which was disappointing. I only stayed a minute. The last thing they needed at that point was yet one more non-Ukrainian A.A. to join the fray.

Tonight, I learned from a reliable source that only one of the seven or eight regular Ukrainian group members was able to get into the meeting (presumably, the Zoom host). No doubt, many of the attendees had good intentions, although I'm also pretty sure some did not. Clearly, many also didn't think through the consequences of their actions.

And then, very late last night, My friend said that another friend of hers had found a Facebook post about the A.A. meeting in Kyiv earlier, shown at the left. It was so disheartening to read. Yes, many non-Ukrainians—maybe hundreds of themgot to feel good for a minute. Meanwhile, seven or eight locals never got to their meeting.

25 July 2021

God As We Understand Him?

 I recently read Bill W.'s essay, “God As We Understand Him: The Dilemma of No Faith”, in The Language of the Heart (originally published as “The Dilemma of No Faithin the April 1961 issue of the A.A. Grapevine). He begins this essay by saying, “The phrase God As We Understand Him is perhaps the most important expression to be found in our whole AA vocabulary.”

For a long time, I've been vaguely uncomfortable with this wording, even though I knew what it meant the first time I heard it. In the last few years, but not in my early sobriety, I've sometimes heard newcomers asking about this expression, “How can anyone understand God?”  in a way that led me to think that perhaps this was an impediment for them. I realized my discomfort is just that. Perhaps understanding is not the best word. I think “God As We Conceive of God” is closer to the intended meaning. It will be interesting to see how the proposed plain language Big Book* (i.e., Alcoholics Anonymous) will deal with this phrase. If at all.


* If you don't know what this is or what it means, check out Advisory Action #28 (on p 7) in this document: Conference Advisory Actions of the 71st General Service Conference, a list of all such actions adopted at the 71st General Service Conference last April.

17 July 2021

19,560 days

Yes, I am still sober, still above ground. My posts slowed down drastically and then stopped altogether because I feared it would become too easy to identify who I was from my posts, due to circumstances of my life. Already, my brother had figured out this was me. For those who don't realize it, I was doing my best to respect Tradition 12. My brother already knew I was a deeply involved member of A.A.

Future posts will probably be less personal, on the whole. I hope this is, at least in part, because I have less interest in myself and more interest in others [v. Alcoholics Anonymous, p 84].

A.A. in these times of pandemic has been a great experience for me personally. Since mid-March 2020, I've attended online meetings on every continent that has them (Antarctica does not, due to insufficient bandwidth). I've been regularly attending meetings all over the US and Canada, as well as in Australia and South Africa. It has also become much easier to find workshops, conventions, conferences, and meetings that focus on topics like Traditions, Concepts, The A.A. Service Manual, and A.A. history. These are topics that I love learning about. I've been sober almost 29 years, been involved in General Service for 25½ of those years, but I sometimes think I've learned more about General Service in the last 16 months than in all the time before. Maybe not. Maybe it just feels that way.

19 August 2010

Eighteen years


Still here, still sober, even if I'm not posting. Yesterday I celebrated 18 years of continuous sobriety.

19 August 2009

Seventeen years

Yesterday was the 17th anniversary of my first A.A. meeting, which marked the beginning of my current spell of continuous sobriety. I can't say I celebrated, because I was too busy doing things that are little more than the blessings of a sober life:
  • Took my car in to have the oil changed and the engine light checked—I not only have a driver's license, I also have a car
  • Worked—I am employable today
  • Chaired a meeting of the local chapter of a professional organization—not only employed, but on the Board of Directors and also Program Chair
  • Attended a funeral
The funeral, ironically enough, was for Bumblebee, someone I sponsored for a while. I suspect I was his last sponsor. I hadn't seem him in at least a year, and sometimes wondered if he named me when asked if he had a sponsor. Then I would wonder if he was even making meetings.

Apparently not. He was definitely out there. He committed suicide by stabbing himself to death in the parking lot of the apartment complex where he lived. In the femoral artery. Thank you, Bumblebee, for keeping it green for me on my anniversary.

Tonight I will celebrate with dinner and a meeting! Praise HP, from whom all blessings flow!