In 1938, in the midst of one of Bill W.’s “imaginary ulcer attacks,” a “depressive
snit,” and a severe case of self-pity (“Poor me! Poor Bill Wilson!”), he
wrote the Twelve Steps. Later he recalled that he “relaxed and asked for
guidance, then picked up his pencil and [a] cheap yellow tablet” to begin
writing:
The words kept right on coming.… I didn’t
seem to be thinking at all as I wrote. The words just flowed out of me and
I’ve come to believe that these Steps must have been inspired.
His most likely source, however indirect, was his own experience. At least
eleven of the twelve steps can be found in the first two drafts of his
story
[right: “The Strange Obsession,” his earliest draft, May 1938]
for the book that would eventually become the Big Book,
Alcoholics Anonymous.
This "First draft", the “original” Twelve
Steps, as reverse-engineered by William Schaberg in
Writing the Big Book on p. 458, are shown below (column 1), alongside
the Twelve Steps from
The Book That Started It All: The Original Working Manuscript of
Alcoholics Anonymous
(column 2), and those published in the first printing of the first edition
of Alcoholics Anonymous on April 10, 1939 (column 3).
Differences are highlighted, with edits from version to version indicated as
deletions and
additions:
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First draft
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Original Working Manuscript
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Alcoholics Anonymous, 1st Edition, 1st Printing
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1.
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Admit you are powerless over alcohol—that your life has become
unmanageable.
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Admit you are
Admitted we were
powerless over alcohol—that
your life has
our lives had
become unmanageable.
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We
admitted we were powerless over alcohol—that our lives had become
unmanageable.
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2.
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Come to believe that God could restore you to sanity.
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Come
Came
to believe that
God
a Power greater than ourselves
could restore
you
us
to sanity.
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Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to
sanity.
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3.
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Surrender your will and your life over to the care and direction of God.
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Surrender
Made a decision to turn
your
our
will and
life
our lives
over to the care and direction of God
as we understood Him.
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Made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God
and direction as we
understood Him.
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4.
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Make a searching and fearless moral inventory of yourself.
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Make
Made
a searching and fearless moral inventory of
yourself
ourselves.
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Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
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5.
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Admit to God, to yourself, and to another human begin the exact nature
of your wrongs.
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Admit
Admitted
to God, to
yourself
ourselves, and to another human being
the exact nature of
your
our
wrongs.
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Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact
nature of our wrongs.
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6.
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Be entirely willing for God to remove all your defects of character.
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Be
Were
entirely willing
for
that, God remove all
your
these
defects of character.
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Were entirely
willing that ready for to have God
remove all these defects of character.
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7.
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Humbly, on your knees, ask God to remove your shortcomings—holding
nothing back.
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Humbly, on your
our
knees,
ask God
asked Him, to remove
your
our
shortcomings—holding nothing back.
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Humbly, on our knees,
asked Him to remove our shortcomings—holding nothing back.
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8.
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Make a list of all persons you have harmed, and become willing to make
complete amends to them all.
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Make
Made
a list of all persons
you have
we had, harmed, and
become
became
willing to make complete amends to them all.
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Made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make
complete amends to them all.
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9.
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Make direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do
so would injure them or others.
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Make
Made
direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so
would injure them or others.
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Made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do
so would injure them or others.
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10.
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Continue to take personal inventory and when you are wrong promptly
admit it.
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Continue
Continued
to take personal inventory and when
you are
we were
wrong promptly
admit
admitted
it.
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Continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly
admitted it.
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11.
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Seek through prayer and meditation to improve your contact with God,
praying only for knowledge of His will for you and the power to carry
that out.
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Seek
Sought
through prayer and meditation to improve
your
our
contact with God, praying only for knowledge of His will for
you
us
and the power to carry that out.
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Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our
conscious contact with God
as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry
that out.
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12.
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Having had a spiritual experience as the result of this course of
action, try to carry this message to others, especially alcoholics, and
to practice these principles in all your affairs.
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Having had a spiritual experience as the result of this course of
action,
try
we tried
to carry this message to others, especially alcoholics, and to practice
these principles in all
your
our
affairs.
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Having had a spiritual
experience
awakening as the result of
this course of action
these steps
, we tried to carry this message to
others, especially
alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
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Summary: “First draft” vs. Original Working Manuscript
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Throughout, changed 2nd person present tense to 1st person plural tense
(i.e., “you come” to “we came”, “you make” to “we made”).
- In Step 2, changed “God” to “a Power greater than ourselves”.
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In Step 3, changed “Surrender” to “Made a decision to turn”, and added “as
we understood Him” to “God”.
- In Step 6, changed “for God to” to “that God”.
- In Step 7, changed “God” to “Him”.
Summary: Original Working Manuscript vs. Alcoholics Anonymous, 1st Edition, 1st Printing
- In Step 1, changed “Admit” to “We admitted”.
- In Step 6, changed “willing that” to “ready to have”.
- In Step 7, removed “on our knees” and “—holding nothing back”.
- In Step 11, added “as we understood Him” to “God”.
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In Step 12, changed “spiritual experience” to “spiritual awakening”, “this
course of action” to “these steps”, and “to others, especially alcoholics”
to “to alcoholics”.